Ring a Fucking Ding Ding

Robert Taylor is getting married. The feelings i should be feeling are probably all related to being happy, but that is the last feeling I'm feeling right now. I'm pissed, upset, annoyed, jealous, etc. Its not fair that I cant even get one good date and the guy who use to annoy me in class, yet i was still nice to because he was socially awkward and i felt bad for, is getting married!

Yes, Robert is a really nice guy, smart, and his looks aren't bad, but its not fucking fair. I should be the guy who falls in love with his high school sweet heart gets engaged during college and married once we graduate. I want that. I want someone to at least think of me as more then someone they would want to sleep with. YES, SEX IS GREAT, but it isn't the end all be all of anything... except the human species, but humans almost 99 percent aren't doing it for that reason.

I should feel bad for being so selfish and for thinking these bad things, but i don't really. Yes i get a twinge as i think about what I'm really saying, and will later regret it but, tonight I'm just me.